Hernandos Journal.

Wednesday, 9:00pm
Why shouldn't I kill him, don't I deserve to live? I can think of a hundreds ways to go about it.  It wouldn't be that hard really, he's is just an Eladrin that wants to feel like he is in control of us, that's the only reason he's been in Zarcharis so long. I can't even imagine why they want me too? Why, I ask you? Why kill this guy, is he just bad for business?  But then again, why say that your going to kill me if I don't?  The regular rate would have been fine? Do they not think I can?  Are they threatening me with my life because they think I can't kill one "holier than thou" eladrin?  I will gladly kill him for free, if it's to prove that I can, I have done that many times before.  I have proved myself to many men who question my ability, either by killing them, or the one they want me to kill.  However, I have never had a client ell me that if I don't, they will kill me..... Break a leg, hand, or take my money. yes, but not kill me.
Is he that important?  Sure he puts away a few thugs, who, by the way,  deserve to get caught seeing how sloppy they were working. That can't be that bad for business.  Most of them get out on bribes and/or escape anyway.  Was it them that tried to kill him before? How were they not successful then? I'lll tell you how, they were sloppy, and they didn't have me.


Thursday 11am
Couldn't sleep last night, thinking to much and came to a problem.
He hasn't done anything wrong.   I have always known why or at least had an inclining of why a person deserved to die, and in turn I deliver them to death.  But the more I know of this man, this Silvanus, the more I don't want to kill him. I'm sure he has done something wrong in his life, but nothing that would deserve this.  Dano would just tell me to not mess with these guys and just do the job and be happy, but that is the problem, if they are willing to kill me if I don't kill him, then what is stopping them from doing it after I do.  All they will have to do is come in and kill me right after. Dios Mio.....

Thursday afternoon
I need to know why.  I will ask him, and with a blade to his neck he will tell me why someone wants him dead.  If there is no answer, I will preserve my life and end his.  I'm might be able to ask the hood if he knows about this guy, if I see him before tonight.